i waken from my sleep a few days ago thinking "you love death more then you love life."startled i became angery that all my life up to this point has been meaningless to me.no sleep came after that ordeal i went on about my day bored,unwanted,lost,useless.it dident bother me tell now. realizing this i wanted attention,but all in the wrong places.so i gave up on life itslef.im just a flower in the back ground.dont pitty me i hate that.dont tell me its alright ill spit in your face.dont tell me it well change cause it wont.


life is meaningless if you find death more attractive.
i cant help it its just i see things differently then most people do.